Actually I have nothing much that I feel like posting about. Just find that it's just another year... strangely I've worked for a pretty long time already... but the overwhelming amount of work just makes it fly by I guess. But it's only 'flying' based on a "look back and realise that I started work in June 09" kind of situation. The daily minutes, hours actually makes me tired and drained.
How can I explain myself?
It's something like, I feel energy going out of me like crazy, but the minutes and hours fly by because I simply have not enough time to do all that I want to do/ need to do. Griefs. And I'm not just talking about what I need to do for work, but also for other people around me and even for myself. Sheesh.
BUT let's not start the year with such emotions and thoughts. I'm happy to say that my quarter century age is due to come this year, but I am happy with what I have done with my life. Of course, there's more to work on, to improve, to change. But I just wanna say I'm proud of coming this far. Time to go further in 2010!!
Just to end this post on a lighter note, let me try to recap my happier moments in 2009... (It's based on my calendar records. I do not have super memory... haha!)
1 Jan 09 - Operation Marsbar =)
6-24 Jan 09 - Nepal: Amazing experience, out of this world. I had a great time with my squadmates - braving the cold, the 'waterfall' diarrhoea, the naans and maggie mee, the terrain. Loving the scenery, enjoying the tea, eating yummy dinners, talking, laughing and cheering each other on, watching shooting stars. Simply. Amazing.
26-30 Jan 09 - Fun in the sun @ Sabah with my family. Then kena burnt like lobster.
2 Feb 09 - Became radioactive for a day
7 Feb 09 - :)
10 April 09 - Yvonne and Daryl's ROM. One of my best friends! ;)
14 April 09 - Mortuary visit and viewed a full post mortem - and survived. Eeks but proud of myself.
Feb to May 09 - Weekly outings with my wonderful squadmates to various restaurants. Oooh the luxury and freedom.
7 May 09 - Passing Out Parade... a mark of completion and the proud feeling of being part of a parade. Proud of my squad.
8 May 09 - Sense of release, freedom? And yet sadness, knowing that another major part of my life has come to a close.
17 May to 20 May 09 - Chill out cruise trip with my momma. I love spending time with her.
23 May to 29 May 09 - HK and Macau... although it was rainy and mood dampening, it's the company that's important. Realised that Lowe and I 'click' as travel mates. Haha.
8 June 09 - First official day at work... the end of my super holiday... start of my nightmare job (ok, to give it some credit, I'll call it 'challenging'. Haha)
9 Aug 09 - Fortunate me, got to watch NDP live with Mel. Felt so part of my country.
16 Aug 09 - My first half marathon! I can't believe that I did it. :P
13 Dec 09 - Brother's baptism... rushed there after my 24 hour duty. And I was deeply blessed by his testimony - my bro's all grown up!
19 Dec - 24 Dec 09 - Fantastic break with a trip to Malaysia with my family. Really really really a lovely break.
All in all, I want to give thanks to God for being here in my life, through it all. =)
~ I find myself really happy with - when I think or be ~
Friday, January 08, 2010
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Retail Therapy
That's what I need now... haha. I'm having so much trouble deciding what to wear (even though I only need to choose on weekends) cos I think I'm bored with my clothes - either I keep repeating those that I like, or I now look fat in certain clothes, or I simply don't like some of the clothes anymore. Haha, don't mean to sound bimbotic! Anyway, I have not gotten anything new for about 9 months now... griefs! I'd like to have new clothes to wear, but to find time and energy to shop! Goodness, that's the hard part. :P
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
You'd Never Know When...
You'd never known when you'd end up encouraging someone. I think somehow God factored that into His design. Why am I saying this now? Cos I have been receiving emails from a particular colleague. The emails contain fictional short stories that are like metaphors. Similiar to my earlier post on the Coffee Bean, Carrot and Egg. So anyway, my point is that I'm feeling pretty stretched this period of time... but I received a timely encouragement when I opened my email just now. I received this particular mail that lifted my spirit (Posted below). So it goes to show huh, don't unestimate a simple action - it could mean alot to someone out there! So that's why now I'm sharing this on my blog cos I think it's so meaningful and so appropriate to my circumstances now. =) I particularly like the ones in purple.
Things To Remember
I find what I look for in people. If I look for God, I find God. If I look for bad qualities, I find them. I, in a sense, select what I expect, and I receive it.
A life without challenges would be like going to school without lessons to learn.
Challenges come not to depress or get me down, but to master and to grow and to unfold thereby.
In the Father's wise and loving plan for me, no burden can fall upon me, no emergency can arise, no grief can overtake me, before I am given the grace and strength to meet them.
A rich, full life is not determined by outer circumstances and relationships. These can be contributory to it, but cannot be the source. I am happy or unhappy because of what I think and feel.
I can never lose anything that belongs to me, nor can I posses what is not really mine.
To never run from a problem: either it will chase me or I will run into another just like it, although it may have a different face or name.
To have no concern for tomorrow. Today is the yesterday over which I had concern.
To never bang on a closed door: Wait for it to open and then go through it.
A person who has come into my life has come either to teach me something, or to learn something from me.
~ You've made a difference. Trust in a God that is all powerful and loving. ~
Things To Remember
I find what I look for in people. If I look for God, I find God. If I look for bad qualities, I find them. I, in a sense, select what I expect, and I receive it.
A life without challenges would be like going to school without lessons to learn.
Challenges come not to depress or get me down, but to master and to grow and to unfold thereby.
In the Father's wise and loving plan for me, no burden can fall upon me, no emergency can arise, no grief can overtake me, before I am given the grace and strength to meet them.
A rich, full life is not determined by outer circumstances and relationships. These can be contributory to it, but cannot be the source. I am happy or unhappy because of what I think and feel.
I can never lose anything that belongs to me, nor can I posses what is not really mine.
To never run from a problem: either it will chase me or I will run into another just like it, although it may have a different face or name.
To have no concern for tomorrow. Today is the yesterday over which I had concern.
To never bang on a closed door: Wait for it to open and then go through it.
A person who has come into my life has come either to teach me something, or to learn something from me.
~ You've made a difference. Trust in a God that is all powerful and loving. ~
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Friday, November 06, 2009
Two Things in My Thoughts
FYI: The previous blogpost was for fun. Haha... ~You know what I mean~
Anyway, the more serious thoughts that I've having these days are these two questions:
1) The value of life
I just started doing death cases. I think life is really fragile... it can go any point in time. And its the people left behind who would feel the loss. So live life to the fullest! What does that mean to me? It means not holding on to the temporary, living honorably, loving the people around, not holding on to the petty things like anger, bitterness, jealousy, etc. Basically all these are nicely elaborated in the bible! I hope to live the life that God has intended for me to live. =)
Anyway, value the life that you have. No matter how bad things may get, life is not yours. It belongs to God and partly to others as well. I think when one person dies, the person brings away part of another person's life.
2) The cost of justice
What is justice? Is it worth the cost? Who can determine who is right and who is wrong? I've concluded that truly truly, human level of justice is imperfect and merely the tip of the iceberg of what TRUE justice is. Re-emphasizes the point that only God is able to be the final, consistent, fair and able judge.
Anyway, it's really costly to have justice in this world - both monetary and in terms of time and effort. And if justice is costly even at the human level, imagine the cost of true and pure justice! I think that's why the cost of God's justice is Jesus. I can't understand it, but that's because I'm just human :P
Anyway, the more serious thoughts that I've having these days are these two questions:
1) The value of life
I just started doing death cases. I think life is really fragile... it can go any point in time. And its the people left behind who would feel the loss. So live life to the fullest! What does that mean to me? It means not holding on to the temporary, living honorably, loving the people around, not holding on to the petty things like anger, bitterness, jealousy, etc. Basically all these are nicely elaborated in the bible! I hope to live the life that God has intended for me to live. =)
Anyway, value the life that you have. No matter how bad things may get, life is not yours. It belongs to God and partly to others as well. I think when one person dies, the person brings away part of another person's life.
2) The cost of justice
What is justice? Is it worth the cost? Who can determine who is right and who is wrong? I've concluded that truly truly, human level of justice is imperfect and merely the tip of the iceberg of what TRUE justice is. Re-emphasizes the point that only God is able to be the final, consistent, fair and able judge.
Anyway, it's really costly to have justice in this world - both monetary and in terms of time and effort. And if justice is costly even at the human level, imagine the cost of true and pure justice! I think that's why the cost of God's justice is Jesus. I can't understand it, but that's because I'm just human :P
Saturday, October 24, 2009
My Passing Out Parade (POP) Pictures
Eh... I can't remember the date of this event either!!! Oh my gosh... haha. I think it was 14 May 2009? *Oops*
I'm one of the girls in front, just behind the parade commander... can spot me? Haha.
I'm one of the girls in front, just behind the parade commander... can spot me? Haha.
The gals of C1/08 and C2/08... with my Bruneian squadmates :)
A really cool picutre of the just SPF gals
Pinxy and me!! We look like kids.
Pa and Ma and me :)
My sisters-in-Christ!! Really so touch that they came to support me!! The flowers are from them... plus chocs :) Sighs, miss Bee! So long since we've had a chat.
Dinner time... so must wear this penguin-like attire... haha. With some of my fellow squadmates.
A year ago pictures... haha!
PART 1: My Commencement... the day that I official graduate from my university... I think it was 14 July 2008. :P
My ISE mates :)
My Happy12Friends Gang... =)
My family without the "studio" look
My family with the "studio" look - I love the studio shots!!!
PART II: Hitomi and Andreas in Singapore
Andreas and Hitomi came over to Singapore (I can't even remember when!!!)
Taken in their hotel - Pan Pacific (Interestingly it's gonna be where Daryl and Yvonne will hold their wedding)
Shopping at Far East Plaza... we all bought the same pair of shoes! Haha, cos it was only $10 and Hitomi was the one who spotted it... Von and I would never have bought it if it was not for her cos it's the cutesy kind. Too bad I've only worn it once... :(
And dinner to end off the day!! We got almost the whole Finland gang to join us. It was a great day =)
My ISE mates :)
My Happy12Friends Gang... =)
My family without the "studio" look
My family with the "studio" look - I love the studio shots!!!
PART II: Hitomi and Andreas in Singapore
Andreas and Hitomi came over to Singapore (I can't even remember when!!!)
Taken in their hotel - Pan Pacific (Interestingly it's gonna be where Daryl and Yvonne will hold their wedding)
Shopping at Far East Plaza... we all bought the same pair of shoes! Haha, cos it was only $10 and Hitomi was the one who spotted it... Von and I would never have bought it if it was not for her cos it's the cutesy kind. Too bad I've only worn it once... :(
And dinner to end off the day!! We got almost the whole Finland gang to join us. It was a great day =)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Work is sometimes rewarding
Since I keep going on and on about how terrible my work is (it still is... long hours, dreadfully never ending work, high stress, crap thrown at you), I've decided to add something nice. Just to end off my "Work is..." series. Haha.
Seriously, sometimes I find that I'm making a difference. But it's a rare feeling... mostly lasts for like 5 minutes. HaHA! I think sometimes I'm doing something good by removing some bad people from society. Other times, I'm doing something good cos I'm fighting for justice for some genuine victims.
One thing that I've learnt though, (Ariel will kill me for this... haha) crime is mostly because of silly people. Some commit crime from pure foolishness. On the other side of the spectrum, foolish people allow crime to be committed upon themselves. So you see, either way is not right.
Anyway, the rewarding part is when I remove those people who commit crime simply because they want to commit crime (i.e. no mitigating factors) and when I help victims who are unfortunate victims of crime (i.e. they did not bring it upon themselves from foolishness).
Another thing, I think MCYS is important, because generally criminals develop due to their upbringing. This reminds me of one of my most favourite movie and a quote from it:
"If you suffer your people to be ill-educated and their manners corrupted from infancy, then punish them for those crimes to which their first education disposed them, what else is to be concluded, Sire, but that you first make thieves and then punish them?" - Ever After
Ok that's all for tonight... so super duper tired, but somehow felt like blogging a bit. Nighty!
~ "Where's your sense of adventure?" ~
Seriously, sometimes I find that I'm making a difference. But it's a rare feeling... mostly lasts for like 5 minutes. HaHA! I think sometimes I'm doing something good by removing some bad people from society. Other times, I'm doing something good cos I'm fighting for justice for some genuine victims.
One thing that I've learnt though, (Ariel will kill me for this... haha) crime is mostly because of silly people. Some commit crime from pure foolishness. On the other side of the spectrum, foolish people allow crime to be committed upon themselves. So you see, either way is not right.
Anyway, the rewarding part is when I remove those people who commit crime simply because they want to commit crime (i.e. no mitigating factors) and when I help victims who are unfortunate victims of crime (i.e. they did not bring it upon themselves from foolishness).
Another thing, I think MCYS is important, because generally criminals develop due to their upbringing. This reminds me of one of my most favourite movie and a quote from it:
"If you suffer your people to be ill-educated and their manners corrupted from infancy, then punish them for those crimes to which their first education disposed them, what else is to be concluded, Sire, but that you first make thieves and then punish them?" - Ever After
Ok that's all for tonight... so super duper tired, but somehow felt like blogging a bit. Nighty!
~ "Where's your sense of adventure?" ~
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